I am one of those reluctant pastors. I felt God called me to ministry back when I was 18 and I have wrestled with that call every day since. You would think after numerous confirmations and people telling me how gifted I was at ministry I would be more secure. So what is it that makes me feel unqualified? A lack of education? Nope, I have a Masters Degree in Ministry. A lack of experience? No, I have been at it for nearly two decades now. The issue that holds me back is feeling unqualified, unworthy, too sinful to be someone who stands up and tries and instructs others on how to lead their spiritual lives. Who am I to pastor people when I myself am so broken?
Waiting for something is no fun. Walking into my gym the other day I had to wait in line to have the guy at the counter scan my gym pass. Most days I walk right up to the counter and wisp by the counter as he scans my tag. Crazy how such a short interruption causes me internal angst. I remember as a young boy growing up in church hearing the verse about waiting on the Lord for the first time.